I am trying to find balance in my life particularly in regards to diet and exercise. Its been a challenging process and I am still learning- a lot! I have been Paleo for two and a half years now. I love the philosophy behind clean eating, but sometimes the sheer restriction of it is overwhelming. I had a phone interview with Robb Wolf and he basically said that everyone should follow ultra strict Paleo and not whine or complain about it. It was pretty harsh, but at the time, I totally agreed.
As I sit with woman after woman doing nutrition consulting, I find myself moving closer and closer to the middle of the road, flanked by extreme behaviors and beliefs. I have been reading some great books on emotional intelligence and behavior modification and continue to see the light when it comes to balancing what you eat with your emotions and your life.
Which leads me to todays post: I hate being Paleo! This is a huge step for me to admit this!! Since starting the SCD/SIBO diet last month, I have realized how much food eliminations and restriction can cause really disordered eating. I have noticed that my cravings and desire for starchy foods has dramatically increased and no matter what I do to think my way through it or choose not to have it, I still crave. I know this comes from a couple of things..(be prepared for a lot of whining)
I am sooooo sick and tired of cooking every damn day!!! I am so tired of slaving over the stove making meat and veggies. I just want a freaking peanut butter and jelly sandwich!! Sometimes I just want to eat a burger and fries and not worry about things like leaky gut, blood sugar spikes and digestive issues. I am so tired of living on veggies and meat and fat. I am sick of not being able to enjoy sweet potatoes and fruit. I want to be able to go out to eat without having to sub every other item on the menu. I work 50 hours a week and drive 50 miles or more a day and still have to come home and make multiple meals each day. I am soooo tired of it!! Ahhhh!!!!!! (PS, if you have mean or negative things to say to me please dont comment, ok?)
Whew. I feel a little better.just a little. So, the journey continues! I want to keep listening to my body and eating foods that not only nourish my body, but nourish my soul too. Will you join me in the discovery of body awareness and self-care?? For more info on how to begin this journey, email me! I would love to talk with you about it!